NEW YEAR, NEW BEGINNINGS, NEW POSTINGS

I knew it was time to start blogging again when I would lie awake at night thinking about things to write about. I took a break, not so much because I wanted to, rather, I just didn't feel up to it or anything else to be honest. The good news: we are expecting a baby, yes #5. The bad news: I had complications from when I was less than six weeks along, forcing me to be on bedrest for a month and then restricted for a couple more weeks after that. During that time I had the worst morning sickness I have ever had. I realize this may not be a factor for some women who are pregnant but I have always had morning sickness and this time almost put me over the edge. I could not function. At all. So here comes the part that I was deciding whether or not to tell you and why I put off blogging for so long, but for me writing is theraputic. I need to get it out and move on. We were having two babies but one did not make it. The image of the two heartbeats pumping simultaneously is forever ingrained in my memory. But it time to move on and be grateful that I have one little one who's doing well.

So I want to start this new year by focusing on positives, I think I am on the road to feeling better, at least the last two days! My husband, who has encouraged me to keep blogging because he likes to read the posts, has been Mr. Mom lately. He has taken care of the kids, cooked, done laundry and a myriad of other things when I could not. I have so much appreciated everything and am now trying to get back to "normal". This is all I have in me for now but check back because I hope to be posting more often.