SHE'S HERE!

Tessa Lee arrived on July 7, at 1:53pm. she weighed 8lbs, 13oz and was 21 inches long. I look at her now and honestly do not know how she fit in my uterus. Jason said that would explain the sharp pains I felt during the last week when she was moving around. She was not the largest, Preston weighed 9lbs, 11oz. Everything went well and I feel so lucky to have five healthy children.

As much as I could not wait to see Tessa, I forgot the range of emotions I would experience afterwards. The lack of sleep was huge for the first week, in addition to our house being very busy with everyone home for the summer and Jason experiencing his busiest time of year as well as my mom being out of town for a wedding. I didn't realize how much I relied on my mom...but if you're reading this mom, don't feel bad, I am glad you had the experience of going and spending time with family:)

I also forgot how I would feel guilty that I would not have as much time for each of my kids with a newborn to take care of. I had to miss Preston's all-star baseball games :( But I keep reminding myself that they have gained a precious little sister and I hope that her and Stella especially have a close bond. Then there is always (for me always), the feelings of, "Is this really the last one? The last time I will have this experience?" I know it is crazy but I have always enjoyed pregnancy, minus the morning sickness.

Postpartum feelings aside, as tomorrow marks the two-week point, I am starting to feel we are getting back to "normal" and I look forward to finishing my recovery from the c-section and returning to my regular workload. Most of all, I look forward to our future with five kiddos and the relationships they will experience with each other.